I've had a long road to travel since I last posted here. Only a week ago, I lost a very dear friend and a sort of mentor by way of music. I had the distinct pleasure of working with him for over a year before he became ill, and releasing a cd with him and the band in 2005. However, after a long battle with ALS Robert has finally gone on to where there is no more pain.

It was a tough loss for myself and for the rest of the band members.

Then, just two days ago, I recieved word that my grandmother must have another cardiac related surgical procedure on Monday. My mother hopped a last-minute flight to travel to Tampa in order to be there.

All of this happening mere weeks before my wedding. While my fiance and I have attempted to put off the wedding until things settle down a bit, for the sake of my grandmother in particular, she is insistent that we move forward as planned. Insisting that my mother is making a bigger issue out of this situation than it is. The doctors have assured her that she will be able to make the flight in two weeks time as planned.

To be honest, it makes me uneasy. But I've never been able to tell my grandparents no.

Couple this with my biological father being upset over not sending invitations North to his side of the family... oh that is another issue altogether. One he does NOT want to test me on right now.

Also having to give my cat away. Since we can't have him here at the hotel and my mother has decided that she can't keep him.... well have to do something. But fortunately I think we've found him a good home.

Right now, I'm just writing through all of this. It's a big mess. My nerves are shot. My fiance's are as well for that matter. We both just want to get through this wedding with our sanity in tact.